Not A Weekend Update, But A Celebrated Birthday

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My father passed away 20 years ago.  Today would've been his 67th birthday.  There were a lot of things we used to do as a family when he was alive, but when he passed away things changed a little.  Things were being done I guess out of habit or because it "had" to be done a certain way.  The fun was no longer in it.  My dad was a quiet man, but he liked having fun.  He was a prankster.  One day he came in with blood all over saying he was in an accident.  I was worried and my mother started freaking out.  He kept it up for quite a bit.  On a Halloween I remember there were these girls that came to out door trick or treating.  He stood against the open door shirtless with fake blood smeared on his chest.  He just looked off into the distance.  The girls were my age.  They kept their bags open while I threw in candy, but there eyes didn't leave him except for the quick second where they thanked me and step aside for the next girl.  All of a sudden, my dad pounces forward while yelling boo.  Those poor girls.  A couple of them took off leaving their bags behind.  The brave ones jumped back and then laughed.  First at the prank, then at the girls who ran away.  He was awesome.

After he passed, like I said, things changed.  Once, my king was here I wanted to give him what my dad gave me including those happy fun moments.  I started doing April Fool's again.  Last year, he was only 6 months old but this year I wanted to go out.  Have a Mommy & Me day in honor of my dad's birthday.  I wasn't sure what to do,but the simplest thing for us to do was go out for a movie.  We went out to the mall, had some breakfast together, walked around a bit just talking (mostly a one-sided conversation lol) and watched Rio 2.  When we got home, he was knocked home.  It was a good day.

It's really hard losing someone you love so much.  After a while...a long one...it's gets easier in a way.  But then there are times when it just doesn't.  I would love for my son to meet my dad.  He was an awesome father, he would've made an even better grandfather.  I still have photos of him that I share with my son.  In the future I'll also be sharing some videos I have (I need to hunt for a VCR).  And I think I'llbe celebrating his birthday from now on.  A special day just for him.  Today, I talked to my king about my dad and I know he didn't understand, but someday he will.  I want him to know the kind of person my dad was and for me, there's no better day to start than today.